The sad truth is...

I hate it when it shows he's still on your mind. Lingering somewhere in there. And how you told me you'd never forgive yourself and that thought that you hurt him till you think of it every night, it crushes me. But that doesn't mean I don't want you to tell me. I am eternally grateful that you managed to gather enough courage to tell me about and I do understand that you're telling me everything because you feel like you can tell it to me. So thank you so much for putting so much trust in me. I don't think anyone else would. I'll always feel that tad bit of jealousy in me when he gets mentioned in our conversations and I can't deny that fact. But I'll always have another fact  that can back that up and stop me from getting all douchey on you. The fact that you love me, the fact that you believe in me, the fact that you sacrifice so much for me, and the fact that it's not easy to be in this with me because of all the shit that we have to go through but you still believe it's worth going through for. And for that, I promise you that I will make sure that every ounce of effort you've invested in me will be worth it.