Me

I am a sorry excuse for a boyfriend. When I should be dedicating myself to make you happy, I stumble in between. I have issues. I don't understand why I get sensitive. I have a short temper. I keep telling myself to fix it but I can never really make it disappear for good.
 You're putting up everything for me, and I do appreciate every bit but one side of me always fucks things up. One side of me always somehow makes you feel like nothing you'll do will ever be enough for me. I'm going to set things straight here. You ARE the only thing that can actually make me so happy and smile so wide. But to every pros there are cons and I'm sorry mine had to come in the worst of forms. I'm vulnerable around you. I joke around but I'm sensitive around you. I can't explain why. And I really hate that because I know it can really make you unhappy. This isn't intended to be an insincere apology or anything. It's just a statement that I know how I can really ruin your day, and maybe even ruin you as a whole but trust me I've never had any intention of doing so and whenever it happens, trust me, I feel like shit for hurting someone I love the most.
Yes, I hate it when we fight, and I hate it more when I'm the cause of it. You deserve someone that can make you so much happier. Being with me, you smile, but you seem to frown more and I'm scared I'm not worth your time. But I won't let that hold me down. I will prove my worth. This whole process of becoming a man hasn't even reached it's peak yet. Far from it. I will learn. I will. And I'll be the best you'll ever know. It doesn't matter what the future holds. I want you to be able to look back at your life one day and not consider me a mistake, rather a miracle. Because that's what you are to me. It doesn't matter how I'll end up in the future, what job I get, what my results are gonna be....All that matters is that you were present in my life. That is a gift I can never cherish enough and although my way of showing my appreciation to you isn't how it's suppose to be, but trust me, I do appreciate you, I do care. In fact, I never thought I could care so much for someone rather than my own family. Yes I suck at showing that. That's just because I'm still new to it. I'll get better at it. Thank you, you've stamped your mark on my life, I intend to stamp mine on yours.